Re-evaluation

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.

— Oscar Wilde.

I am at a cross roads. Self doubt circles me, like a shark whose caught a whiff of blood. I’m floundering for life. Gasping for breath at the surface, only to be drug down beneath the surf, and beaten mercilessly by the dark waves. The shark stalking; patiently.

Self doubt sucks. It can drowned a person in the blink of an eye if one isn’t on constant vigil. I am a perfect example. I have been fired from 2 jobs, in less than 90 days. Why, you ask? I would guess it is because I have reached my bullshit limit. Me, being me, I stand up for what I think is right. I make no excuses for my strong personality. I have embraced my weirdness, and straight forward nature. I have trouble sitting quietly by as I am mistreated and underpaid. With the current state or our great Nation, I don’t expect positive changes in the work force anytime soon. Suffice it to say, without getting into politics and bitter drama, I dream of being self employed.

I have tried, and failed, to dabble in this world many times. However, with my book nearing completion, and the need to find an income looming over my head, it is time to make this work. I need to break into this world. I need to be free of corporate America. I need to chose a path I can be proud of, and happy in. So here is hoping. I need this to work.